Katie Goes...

When I originally started this program (PhD Weightloss), I was going to put it online, but I just couldn't bring myself to put it out there right away: 1.  What if I fail (again!)? 2.  What if the hater-trolls come out? 3.  What if I actually don't believe in the program and feel like a fraud. There's probably more, but it doesn't matter, because here's the surprise part:  I actually started this program 8 weeks ago!!!!!!!  What's funny is that one of the reason's I could never seem to stick to anything is I had this crazy Montage Fantasy where somehow I would only have to: 1.  Have a great idea. 2.  Have a great soundtrack. 3.  Really, really want to just be thin and healthy and somehow- POOF- I would be at the end of the movie, having learned all the lessons and be a size 6 with self-effacing modesty and a great wardrobe, with only three or four 2-minute sessions at the gym (looking very determined of course). So, I'm going to stack ...

I've been so lucky to travel before I met my family and we will travel again, but for now, I'm on a journey inward.  The backstory seems so huge and ponderous and I want to explain, but, to quote "The Princess Bride: 'There is no time, lemme sum up!'" The last three years have been crazy stressful and I've sabotaged multiple jobs and gotten sick and been working through deep grief at not being able to have kids.  Last August my husband and I met two children who we've been fostering and hopefully next month we will be able to adopt them.  I will get in to that later, because the layers on that one are six onions deep. My friend Rowan started working at a place called "PhD Weightloss" and even though I feel like I've been to this rodeo, I knew I needed to do something.  The moment I made the commitment was after leaving the kids' therapy appointment and my husband took the kids home; I drove past Krispy Kreme... Eating three doug...